LIFE - THROUGH THE EYES OF A CHRISTIAN/HYPOCRITE

After the death of my mom, I began to question God. Not an angry, unbelieving questioning but a believing questioning... a wondering or pondering. I began to think about how in the Bible it was common for their lives to change in a split second for the good. Like in Joseph's life a King has a dream and boom he's plucked from prison and promoted to 2nd in the kingdom. But, in today's world, it seems any split second change is always negative. You're just going about life and boom: a crash, a tornado, you lose your job, you lose a loved one... everything is gone. As I was asking Him why it never seemed to work that way with good things, I mean it's never like boom overnight I'm rich, He revealed to me that it does. The problem is not that the good doesn't happen, the problem is that I've been conditioned by the world and people around me to think of everything as negative or to just explain it away as life. For instance, how many infertile couples wou...

surrounded by people who don't understand what God has willed what God has planned incapable of seeing  the love that you hold too busy being evil and cold you're easy to blame when you're the odd man out and everyone else  is on the same old route headed toward destruction without a care and angry at you  for not being there you made it to safety swam to the shore nearly drowned  trying to save everyone else on board but still you try to do all that you can toss in the preserver  gripped tight in your hand you pray that they grab it and hold on tight but all they want is to continue to fight they think they are strong won't break and give in when really they're weak  and just want to win but what are they winning? what is the prize? the hatred and evil I see in their eyes? what does that profit? what does that gain? when choosing a life riddled with p...