LIFE - THROUGH THE EYES OF A CHRISTIAN/HYPOCRITE

The walls that people build in their hearts and minds, based on past hurts, do not just keep others out; but also, keep them trapped in. Quite often Christians, whose pages look the most godly, have their settings on social networking set so that others they do not know cannot contact them. I think it is the strangest thing that someone with the title “God’s child” avoids being contacted by their sisters and brothers. There could not be a more literal example of someone putting up a wall that keeps them from their own blessings. These same people could be sitting at home crying and praying to God for Him to send them a good friend. So, He answers the prayer and sends someone but nobody can get through because of the barrier that has been put in place. Then they blame God for their loneliness and get angry with Him for not answering their prayer. Yet, it is not God’s fault. His word is very clear on this matter. Now that you've read my blog, I suggest you read this blog ;)

Have you ever read something that made you take a serious look at yourself and think, "Uh Oh?"  My best friend lent me a book called, "Safe People" by Cloud and Townsend to help me heal after having to deal with some really unsafe people after my mom's death. As I was reading through, I was completely caught off guard by something.  Growing up, I suffered from anorexia. Although, I didn't know I did. I didn't choose to starve myself. We were just poor and I didn't get to eat that often so I stopped feeling hunger. I still remember when I went to the doctor at the age of 20 with a serious sickness and he diagnosed me as an anorexic. I was so angry! I still remember explaining to him that I would eat if I could but I just wasn't hungry and there had to be something causing it. To which he replied, "That is, anorexia." I left his office offended and switched doctors. Later on in life, God showed me that his diagnosis was hard to take ...

Cory and I don't keep up with movies much so we don't know what to watch when we actually are able to sit down together and watch one so we will just randomly pick one off of on demand. Last night we chose a movie called, "Everybody's Fine". I must have cried through the whole thing, lol. I have not had a movie effect me like that in a long time. It was just so close to reality in the world today and it broke my heart to watch this man try to connect with his family and come face to face with a different world than he was used to as well as all of the mistakes he made. I thought about how I used to live in a world just like his where everyone pretended and smiled and lied to each others' faces. I knew I never fit in, but I would try and try until one day I asked myself why. Then,I thought about my friends and family who are still stuck in that pretentious world and they don't even know there is something else available. They can have a life of honesty whe...