LIFE - THROUGH THE EYES OF A CHRISTIAN/HYPOCRITE

Cory and I don't keep up with movies much so we don't know what to watch when we actually are able to sit down together and watch one so we will just randomly pick one off of on demand. Last night we chose a movie called, "Everybody's Fine". I must have cried through the whole thing, lol. I have not had a movie effect me like that in a long time. It was just so close to reality in the world today and it broke my heart to watch this man try to connect with his family and come face to face with a different world than he was used to as well as all of the mistakes he made. I thought about how I used to live in a world just like his where everyone pretended and smiled and lied to each others' faces. I knew I never fit in, but I would try and try until one day I asked myself why. Then,I thought about my friends and family who are still stuck in that pretentious world and they don't even know there is something else available. They can have a life of honesty whe

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Cor 13:3-8 THIS IS THE TRUE DEFINITION OF LOVE, ANYTHING ELSE IS A LIE! Several years ago I was in an abusive relationship that I thought was love and the Holy Spirit brought this verse to my attention. I remember calling my brother to ask him where it was in the Bible and he told me he didn't even think it was scripture; but, I knew it was so I searched through my Bible to find it. When I did, verse 5 jumped out at me, "love is not easily angered." For years I had justified my ex's anger by saying that he just loved me so much that he could not control it; however, God showed me something much different that day. If he truly l

After the death of my mom, I began to question God. Not an angry, unbelieving questioning but a believing questioning... a wondering or pondering. I began to think about how in the Bible it was common for their lives to change in a split second for the good. Like in Joseph's life a King has a dream and boom he's plucked from prison and promoted to 2nd in the kingdom. But, in today's world, it seems any split second change is always negative. You're just going about life and boom: a crash, a tornado, you lose your job, you lose a loved one... everything is gone. As I was asking Him why it never seemed to work that way with good things, I mean it's never like boom overnight I'm rich, He revealed to me that it does. The problem is not that the good doesn't happen, the problem is that I've been conditioned by the world and people around me to think of everything as negative or to just explain it away as life. For instance, how many infertile couples wou

surrounded by people who don't understand what God has willed what God has planned incapable of seeing  the love that you hold too busy being evil and cold you're easy to blame when you're the odd man out and everyone else  is on the same old route headed toward destruction without a care and angry at you  for not being there you made it to safety swam to the shore nearly drowned  trying to save everyone else on board but still you try to do all that you can toss in the preserver  gripped tight in your hand you pray that they grab it and hold on tight but all they want is to continue to fight they think they are strong won't break and give in when really they're weak  and just want to win but what are they winning? what is the prize? the hatred and evil I see in their eyes? what does that profit? what does that gain? when choosing a life riddled with pain